For most of my life I've been a decent guy. A few slip ups here and there, but overall I've treated people well and don't have a lot of badness in me.
Two years ago my employer offered me the chance to live and work in China. My girlfriend couldn't come with me, but we are still together. She's a great girl and wants to marry me when I eventually return home. My work contract will finish next year.
I've always enjoyed a few beers, but back home I would eat well and hit the gym a few times a week, so overall I was a healthy guy. I had a successful career and everything seemed to be going well. Most importantly, I really liked me.
I now fully hate myself. I've turned into a guy who objectifies women, drinks too much alcohol and neglects his health.
I have three girlfriends. One is the great girl back home, one is a Chinese girl, and one is a Japanese girl. I constantly cheat on these women. Part of my job requires me to travel to various factories throughout China. I have girls in all of these cities, and if they aren't around I have sex with prostitutes in the hotels I stay at. I never use condoms unless required to do so. The Japanese girlfriend got pregnant and had to have an abortion. Luckily I have not caught a STI yet but I know it's only a matter of time unless I can get my shit together.